Wednesday, May 31, 2006

And Then The Door Swung Wide Open

(L to R) Christopher, Thando, Olwethu
I am going back to Beautiful Gate in Cape Town, South Africa to help staff the HIV/Aids school there. I leave in early August. I am really looking forward to seeing the kids again. I've heard they are really growing! Even this picture sent to me a few months ago blows my mind! It's not really sinking in that I'm going yet. There's so much to do but I kind of sit dumb-founded wondering if this is really real.

I had come to a place where I was accepting where I was here. I trusted that God had a plan for me so I made a conscious decision to pour myself into life here. Work relationships, church and family, friends. And it was then that the door opened. Suddenly and obviously. I wasn't going to say no. This is my dream. This is what I was born for. So, let's go!

Friday, May 26, 2006

Things I'm Grateful For

  • sleeping in....ahhhhh
  • the whispering of God in my ear as I'm waking
  • coffee....mmmmm
  • african music
  • my family
  • the rain
  • Q-tips
  • getting to know a different side of someone
  • meeting new people
  • dancing
  • new opportunities
  • that I'm not alone

Hey, add your own "things your grateful for and I'll post them!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Spun Gold

Lord, it feels like so much is going on and I'm beginning to spin.
Spin, Spin, can't see where I've been or where I'm goin'.
Nah, that's not true cuz I see You
Behind me, beside me, in front of me, above me,
Leading, loving, directing, protecting.

On the edge of dreams realized, I tend to analyze,
The world and my soul, my calling and my home.

Lord, You always make me jump, into what seems thin air
Falling into what's always there...


But I'm tied into knots still
Climbing these steep hills
Anxious about things you told me not to worry about
Money, family, the unknown and all that.

When I first saw my dream, it was a beautiful thing it seemed
But walkin' into it now, it's more complicated somehow.
My human hands have touched it
Now it bleeds colours unimagined
Changin' the more involved I become
Still beautiful held beneath this Sun.

Oh, somedays I'm ready; waiting to fly,
Other moments I'm frozen, feeling parts of me die.
Leaving things behind I'm not gonna need
The broken heart; the pain of separation; the fear to take lead

Lord, I've always cried out, "choose me,"
In zeal and passion, perhaps naively.
But I'm here and I recognize the path we have chosen
So let me take Your hand and walk with You until this dream turns golden.

Crossed The Finish Line!

My Race Time
1979 1105/1161 F 327/334 F2029 1:20:56 13:02 1457 Nicole MacIver Calgary,AB

Yup, I did it! I ran the 10k on Sunday with my roomate Shannon. There were almost 12000 people there running through the streets of downtown Calgary! My little bro wants to run a race with me so at least one more this summer!

Tuesday, May 09, 2006


I went to the library today and borrowed like 25 CD's! All African music to satisfy my longings for the sweet rhythms! They told me you can take out up to 99 CD's at a time. Tempting, but I'll stick with what I've got. Don't want to be greedy.

I was also checking out the Beautiful Gate website just to see what was new and there are all new pics of the kids on there and one of the last DTS that I staffed. Sometimes I can't believe I knew these wonderful kids pictured on the website and the amazing people who are still working there!