Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Avoiding The Inevitable?

So....Nigeria....HIV/AIDS school....

February/March....thinking....praying....

much praying!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Someone Sing Me A Lullaby

Ahhh...I just cannot seem to sleep. But it's not just tonight, it's been every night for the past few weeks. The only really great night of sleep I had was last week when I had the flu and I doped up on Neo Citran. Maybe I should try it now....grrrr....does anyone know how to turn off my mind? It's killin' me!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

When faced with an actual opportunity to do the thing you dream to do, does anyone else ever second guess those dreams? I find myself thinking, maybe I should just stay here, get a 9-5, buy a car, maybe one day a house, live a predictable, normal and fairly comfortable life. Plenty of other people do it.

But plenty of other people do just the opposite too....like my crazy friend Wilson Ramos, who is in South Africa and has a dream to start up HIV/AIDS schools all over Africa!
I like people who dream.


Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Some New Nicole Developments...

Ha! Did I scare anyone? You all thought I was gonna say I'm off to another country again right?! Well, sadly, no, there are no immediate plans for jetting off to some exotic place. But there are a few new things to tell you about, however small they may be...

  • I've been doing classroom observations all week for my TESL course. Very interesting. A lot of work but very rewarding! I've met people from a dozen different countries in just one week! My favorite was the literacy class which had a lot of Sudanese refugees in it. Have I mentioned I love Africa? And Africans?

  • The cool thing about meeting all these people, is I've started to develop a love for absolutely every culture I come into contact with. I used to think I would never go to China or Japan just because I had no interest in them but after meeting some people from these places, I just want to go Everywhere!

  • Ok, I don't know what possessed me to do this, but I am taking up belly dancing at the museum. It's being offered to the staff for really cheap so I thought, huh, why the heck not? It's to go with the theme of our new show, Petra: Lost City of Stone. Pretty cool actually. I'll let you know how my belly does after our first lesson Friday night.

  • And lastly, I have decided to make a concious decision to be positive about winter. Any suggestions would be ginormously appreciated! (I can't believe I'm saying this).

Oh, one very final note....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY POOKIE-LU!!!!!!!

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Oh My Goodness!!

So, here's the thing....God is Good. But I often act as if He isn't. As though He will not come through for me the 7 billionth time, as though He does not have my best interests in mind, as though He does not care about my hopes and dreams....But if I believe He is Good, GOOD, then my life should reflect that...

I had a good conversation with my mom and sister over dessert last night and it dawned on me, not for the first time of course but every time it does dawn on me it's like the first time, my family, the way we are today, is a miracle! We are a miracle! After all the shit we've been through, to be where we are, loving, growing, hoping, trusting, well it is God shouting from the rooftops, "I CARE!" And the most amazing part is, He isn't just stopping here. He keeps on giving amazing gifts to us, like my mom got Rolly and Michelle got Kirk and Scott got his dream job and I have been to Africa 4 times now before my 27th birthday! I've met amazing people and have friends all over the world! I know He will keep giving and teaching us how to live, to really live and to really love. I know there are things in store for us we can't even imagine because they are so amazing.....because GOD IS GOOD!

I want to start living it out more. This truth. I want to really believe it. Even when it seems the odds are against me. And I want to keep getting these revelations of His goodness at work in my life and in my family's life. Cuz it's just.... freakin'.... cool!