Saturday, October 29, 2005

So I have this issue. It's a money issue involving someone who owes me the money and well, it has nothing to do with the money and everything to do with this person and I'm damn tired of wasting my tears on said person............................................................................................................

I need a hug.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

I Like Books

Well, I am onto a new book that a couple of my DTS students recommended to me. I'm trying sooooo hard not to get too worked up about it, but this guys thoughts are my thoughts sometimes! It's helping me to realize I'm not the only one with these doubts and questions about Christianity. I realize a lot of Christians, not just non-Christians have been hurt and disappointed by the church and they are looking for something. Desiring something so much more. Desiring Jesus Himself, which is the point isn't it?

Well, anyway, here's my quote for the day from Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller.

"Rick....asked us if we thought we needed to repent and start loving people who were different from us. We all told him yes, we did, but I don't think any of us knew what that meant. Rick said he thought it meant we should live missional lives, that we should intentionally befriend people who are different from us. I didn't like the sound of that, to be honest. I didn't want to befriend somebody just to trick them into going to my church. Rick said that was not what he was talking about. He said he was talking about loving people just because they exist-homeless people and Gothic people and gays and fruit nuts. And then I liked the souond of it. I liked the idea of loving people just to love them , not to get them to come to church. If the subject of church came up, I would tell them about [his church], but until then, who cared. So we started praying every week that God would teach us to live missional lives, to notice people who needed to be loved."

Then he writes this part at the end of the chapter that makes me laugh out loud at first and then go hmmmmmmm....

"So here is a step-by-step formula for how you too, can go to church without getting angry:

*pray that God will show you a church filled with people who share your interests and values

*Go to the church God shows you

*Don't hold grudges against any other churches. God loves those churches almost as much as He loves yours."

I like this author cuz God gives me hope through His writing and I've met a handful of people who are trying to live this life of "Christian spirituality" differently and that gives me hope too.

And that's all for today.

Monday, October 24, 2005


YES! I did it! I presented my Heath Education project last night at the coffee shop and I think it went ok. I was pretty nervous just before but once I was up there I was ok. There were lots of questions after, some hard questions, and my sister told me one girl who was there is now seriously considering going to Africa!!

Thank you to my friends from the G-Bow who made a special appearance just for me. It means more to me than you know to have your support! And you too Scotty!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

I'm Still Here!!!

Has it really been that long since I last wrote? Yikes! Sorry guys! Just talked to my friend Jess who "encouraged" me to get my butt in gear and update....

Unfortunately, I have some papers to write for my TESL class, I have an HIV/AIDS presentation to finish for Sunday evening and blah blah blah. So, to satisfy your need for info from me, I will attach photos from the wedding that was like 3 weeks ago already and I will promise to be back just as soon as I can!


Mmmm....Moosewood....yummy vegetarian food in Ithaca. Posted by Picasa

Wedding Decorations! Posted by Picasa

At the Burrville Cider Mill Posted by Picasa

AE and her mom getting ready Posted by Picasa

Craig and Ann Elyse Foltz Posted by Picasa

Monday, October 03, 2005

It's as though it becomes clearer from above it all. The tinyness of human life and the scope of the beauty of the earth stretching in every direction... and my life.

Flying thousands of feet in the air, I'm always amazed these large metal contraptions stay up there afloat. Everyone around me is settled into their seats reading the paper, a book, typing on their laptop oblivious to the fact that we are part of this miracle way up high. That's when I understand the finiteness of man. Sure we can fly, but we don't know how to stop gravity when we begin to fall. We are so finite.

And for once I am so glad God is God. And that I do have moments in which I trust Him completely with my little life. Yes, and that I trust in His infinite Goodness. It sounds awfully simple but for me, this too is a miracle. A miracle of faith. Faith I thought I'd lost. I think I was just too close to the earth seeing those tiny rivers as raging oceans... embrace this Love that chases me, is also to embrace my inability to receive without His help. It is also to embrace myself right here and now for who I am, fumbling and finite.

He makes me strong, He makes me eternal, He makes me OK.

Whoa...I believe I just shivered in the anticipation of what this freedom really means...