Thursday, May 26, 2005


My sister Michelle and I decided to drop in on this dance class last night just for fun. We both danced when we were children and still love to do it. It was pretty fun. "Jazz/Funk" is what they called it. If you know any jazz dance terminology, man it took me back to the days of sequins, shiny tights, loud costumes, ringlets and competitions. "step ball change", "chasse", "box step"..... I can't believe how easily my body remembered how to do the steps! Anyway, Michelle thinks I should just start signing my paychecks over to the studio and take every class they offer(ha ha), and they have some good ones! African dance, African drumming, hip-hop, tap, belly-dancing (well, maybe not belly-dancing). She thinks I need to immerse myself into the things I love to do while I am sort of waiting and trying to figure out what I want to do next with my life. Well, it's nice to have people around who know me and know what I love!

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Practicing The Fine Art of Chillin' Out!

So I started work at this coffee shop near me. It's got an enclosed play area for children so that parents can relax, drink their java while their kiddies run around. It's a great idea. The place has only been open a little over a year. The owners are super nice and once I get the hang of things, I think I'll enjoy it. It's stressful starting any new thing, especially a job. For me, it's been such a struggle; a humbling experience, to come home and not have a purpose. I guess that's part of why I'm here. To figure that out. I mean, as hard and challenging and tiring as it was to work at Beautiful Gate sometimes, at least I had a purpose there. Even if it wasn't what I wanted that purpose to seems the grass is always greener, hindsight is 20/20, that sort of thing.

Something I absolutely MUST learn to do, is CHILL OUT!

Ok, I'm gonna go practice chillin' out.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Big Word of the Day

Tautology... something like using excessive words such as "very redundant".

That's it. I haven't actually given out my blogger address to anyone yet cuz I'm a little freaked out to have people access my strange thoughts on things, but I think I'll let you in on it eventually....I'm such a dork!

Monday, May 09, 2005

O Canada

I've been wondering these past few days since I've been home, what makes Canadians different from the rest of the world? I don't know if everyone is just sleepy still from winter, but people seem quieter here, more reserved, in their own worlds a bit. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to be home and I love Canada, but I've just come from one of the livliest places I've ever been to. Cape Town is busy, big, moving, vibrant and interested People there want to know where I'm from and what I'm doing. Strangers aren't exactly strangers there. They are potential friends.

Well, I guess I still have a lot to process. I am sooooo tired still from the travelling and the thinking. A lot of thinking. Too much thinking? I need to find some place or people to be totally silly with so I can laugh at myself and put things into perspective.

I'll be back


Tuesday, May 03, 2005

My Last Few Hours in South Africa

As I sit here at the computer, just hours away from a physical journey that will take me from Cape Town, South Africa, back home to Calgary, Alberta, Canada, I begin to think of the past 7 months and all I've experienced during the wildly exciting, sometimes downright bleak and disturbing journey that my spirit took while here. Studying and working (volunteering) at Beautiful Gate in Crossroads has sharpened my desire for Truth. Who is this God I claim to believe in and serve? What does He think about me? What does He think about missions and HIV/Aids, and all our strivings to be 'good Christians?' Is there more to living this life than I realize? Do I really know anything at all?

I have so many questions and I guess that's why I'm here. I hope as I question and seek God for the answers that I will grow in my love and desire for Him. As I do that, I'm sure He will lead me to places and people I never dreamed of. At least I know this: my God is extravagant in His giving. He always exceeds my expectations!

I look forward to letting you know what sorts of things I see along this part of my path. I don't think it will always be easy-ok, I know it won't always be easy, but I have all of you! That's what makes this living stuff so great. Relationships with God and with you.

Ok! Gotta FLY! 'Leaving on a jet plane, don't know when I'll be back again....'

You'll hear from me in Canada!